A suicide survivor who shot half her face off has revealed she has found love and happiness.At 7am one foggy morning in 2010, Christen Mc Ginnes, loaded a .357 revolver at her home in Virginia and calmly made the decision to shoot herself in the head.The decision to take her own life had come after a year of trauma after losing her job, breaking up with her partner and her beloved grandmother passing away.
I had a .357 revolver and I knew that would kill me. And, unbeknownst to her, her room mate was sleeping in the next room. And wow, it was really loud and really I couldn't see anything.
And then I heard my roommate scream, 'What's that, what's that! He wasn't supposed to be in the home.'I heard him running around the apartment screaming, 'Where are you? The noise that came out of his mouth was the shrillest, most panicked shriek I've ever heard.'Christen was airlifted to hospital and was in a coma for three weeks.
The bullet had destroyed the right side of her face, from her eye to her chin.
It had blown off the right jawbone, a third of her teeth and tongue, the lower half of her mouth and her right eye. She said: 'The very first thing I remember was my dad holding my hand and saying: 'All you have to do is heal, everything is taken care of, you are safe.'There were piles of cards and gifts, all around me.'I had a nurse with me whilst I was still unconscious and she would read me every card and letter and I am convinced that helped in my recovery and also helped with my mindset to feel grateful that I survived this, instead of angry.'I think the biggest change for me was seeing how much support I really had and how many people truly cared about me - and some of them were downright pissed that I had done this to myself.
They still loved me, but boy were they angry.'That affirmation, that love was so powerful.
It took the anger and depression away.'Her friend Howard, was one of the first to visit her in hospital.